Every once in a while, I get called in to write something “on spec”. This usually means I have to come in and sound like some other rapper on a beat that’s a knock-off of some popular song already in circulation. For instance, a few weeks ago I had to go write a piece for a movie trailer that sounded like Common’s “Universal Mind Control”. If you don’t already know, this is a song I hate more than liver paste, from an album less enjoyable than a rat steak. I had to listen to “Universal Mind Control” and “U.M.C.” KNOCK-OFFS for hours on end. The cherry on the karma-cake was that I then had to write three different versions. All providing further proof that I’m living a dark comedy. And that’s why this part of the grind keeps me humble.

Also, being a rapper-voice-for-hire requires craftsmanship. It’s a steady process of stepping away from my ego, going in and getting the job done. Writing on spec is an exercise in discipline and learning how to separate church and state. The bills have to get paid, I’m good at rapping and I work quickly and efficiently. So I’m using what I have to get what I need…that’s empowering. It has also been an exercise in keeping a folder tucked deep in my computer’s dustiest corner, labeled “Things My MC Friends Must Never Find”. But then one day you just figure, ah fuck it.

The Life Independent™ is one hell of a ride, and I love every minute of it…

“If you see me passing by and you sit and you wonder why

and you wish that you were ramblin too

nail your shoes to the kitchen floor, lace them em up and bar the door

And thank your stars for the roof that’s over you”

Johnny Cash - "Can't Help But Wonder Where I'm Bound"